Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Me and My Ways...

This is funny! A guy that I dated briefly last summer sent this list to me. This was my list of Likes and Dislikes when it comes to dating. I thought it was hysterical that he actually typed these up and saved them. Sad to say, but not much has changed. And "production" means DRAMA. Men and/or people who like to live out movie scripts. In other words, theatrical performances. I ABSOLUTELY HATE THAT. I must admit that I'm kind of quirky.


• Chocolates
• Computer Paper
• Tulips
• Playing and having fun
• No Production
• No relationships of the opposite sex (special friends)
o Unless a mutual friend
• Movies at home
• Watching sporting events with her man
• Baseball games
• Breast and White Meat (chicken)
• Dancing
• Mexican food


• Picnics
• Production
o Rearranged movie scripts
• No other parts of the chicken (other than mentioned above)
• No roast and pork chops

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Who in the heck wears perfume to go jogging??

I was jogging (well walking) the other morning, and I swear I thought I was wigging out or something. I was going one way and a young lady was quickly approaching me. When she passed, I could of sworn that she was wearing perfume. I thought to myself, "No way. Nobody puts on perfume to go outside and run, right?" On the second lap, she passed me again, and it was confirmed. I was so upset for her. Maybe I'm just clueless. I mean, I don't work out enough to know "exercise protocol", but this seems a little extreme. Am I crazy or something?

P.S. I think Fat Greedy must have died or something. I haven't seen him in like months. I just thought about him right now.

Monday, April 17, 2006

"What it do, baby?"

When I first heard this phrase from Paul Wall, I couldn’t figure it out. Was he saying, “What’s up?” I guess it could be used that way, but I think it’s a little deeper than that based on what I understand about the hip-hop culture. “What it do?” means (The Kidd’s perspective), “Who are you today? Are you making it happen? How close are to your dream? Can people see you coming?”

So, an appropriate response would be, “I’m holding it down,” or “I’m trying to do my thing,” or “Big pimpin’ (which actually means trying to “come up”). Anyway, enough on the analysis of Ebonics…what I’m really trying to get at is this: “Where are you in the grand scheme of your life?” I’ve been thinking a lot about how my life is similar to the lives of these artists.

(Trust me, I’m going somewhere with this.) It’s so easy to focus on the setbacks in life and to allow your mind to dictate where you are and what your future position will be, even though it has limited knowledge that is based on your past and the experiences you have witnessed through the lives of other people. Confession: This is my greatest struggle as a Christian.

Now back to my point: What it do? Well for me, “It ain’t been doing too much of nothing.” I must confess that despite the fact that I believe this is The Year of No Limitations, I have allowed my dreams to become stifled. I pretty much felt like a failure when my business venture didn’t work out as planned. Then, I realized I had some major character flaws and had to take a break from everything to get right with God. Now that I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I’m ready to get back in the ring. But, where do I start? When to start? Will I make it this time around? These questions haunt me day and night.

All I know is that I have to chase this dream of mine or my life is absolutely worthless – even in the presence of fear. As a mentor put it to me last week, "It's not about you. It's about God getting his glory through you." I'm trippin'. So, from now on when I ask myself, or you ask me, “What it do?” I’ll tell you what it do: I’m doing the will of God and trying to make the world a better place one day at a time, starting with me. I hope that I inspired you to do the same today.

Finishing what I’ve started,

Kidd Grown